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abuse, anti psychotics, anxiety, bpd, bullying, camhs, child abuse, childhood mental health, coping, counselling, depression, emotional wellbeing, fear, hope, mental health, mental illness, panic, Panic Attacks, psychology, ptsd, recovery, scared, sexual abuse, stress, suicide, therapy, trauma, worry
I have suffered with anxiety all my life. I have always worried and over analysed things. I know it stems from abuse and bullying and constantly being in fear of others.
I grew up living in fear of my parents and bullies. I didn’t know I was anxious. I didn’t know what anxiety even was! I just knew I was scared and very frightened.
I’m terrified of bad things happening all the time. I worry too much. I worry my Nana will die, I worry my friends will be in accidents, that awful things will happen, that they will die and much more.
I worry that people are angry with me, that I have done something wrong, that I’m going to lose people, services, my home, my family and friends. I just worry all the time about everything. If I don’t hear from people, I think they have fallen out with me, that I have done something wrong and then when I do hear from them, I worry it’s with bad news. I get a lot of panic attacks, tight pains in my chest, sweaty hands, feeling agitated, feeling scared and just a general anxious feeling.
Anxiety consumes me. It takes over my life. I worry all the time. I’m currently on medication which does help but I think I need to continue addressing the underlying issues through therapy.
Useful links:
http://www.moodjuice.scot.nhs.uk/anxiety.asp
http://www.youngminds.org.uk/for_children_young_people/whats_worrying_you/anxiety/what_is_anxiety
http://www.supportline.org.uk/problems/anxiety.php